Chief Science Officer's Personal Log

Posted on Mon Jun 29th, 2009 @ 2:07am by Lieutenant Commander Abigail Valera

Stardate 63097.51


I have been checked out healthy and fit from Annalyn. Since returning from the Away Mission I still feel the nerves are about to shatter and fall apart. I was with Raging and Reynolds, checking out the cargo area when I saw movement in my eye. I thought the three of us would enter a fire fight, but Annalyn had called an emergeny beam out and saved us the trouble. I had been afraid that one or all of us would have gotten hurt in the fight... if it had occurred. At the time my hand was on my phaser and Reynolds was reaching over to grab his rifle.

My arm was just coming up with my phaser slightly drawn when I saw the blue light shimmer around the three of us. I relaxed and looked around and saw that all of us were safe. I asked Annalyn to meet in Sickbay for my physical and she allowed me. I went to put my things away and sat alone for a long time. Finally I got tired of being alone(and from calming my nerves down) and went to Sickbay to get my physical done.

I entered and a short time later the captain entered. When I saw him I felt like hell was going to break loose. The last time I talked to the captain he had nearly screamed at me about Peter. If I could change time to change something then I would go back and tell the captain everything about Peter and his secret mission. I miss talking to the captain as a friend and I wish things were back to normal between us, but I know for a fact that things will not be the same as they once were should we become friends again.

If Vorn and I do become friends again then it will be a strained friendship that will snap at the first sign of trouble, I'm sure of it. I just wish I hadn't kept that information from him before then maybe things would be different now. When I was in Sickbay I noticed Vorn was hiding something from me... was he sorry about earlier? Did he want to apologize, but was too nervous to say? Only time will tell and hopefully things will return to normal soon.